Ask and you shall receive

That is what I have come to understand about life. Ask and you shall receive. Along with that though, one should also keep in mind another saying "Careful what you wish for, because you might just get it."
So, this time, I am going to be very specific in what I am seeking in an "Imzadi" and will not settle for anything less than.

The term is from Star Trek TNG - but I was reminded by a former roommate of its existence and meaning. According to Wikipedia - the meaning of Imzadi, "...is the Betazoid word for one's first true love, although not necessarily first sexual partner."

Therefore, the person most suitable for me, as a life partner, someone to take the journey of life with, will be someone with deep empathy, someone who is not a hypocrite ("Oh you're so perfect, I would die for you...") only to turn around and break the land speed record in a matter of days clearing out. Someone with some balls and guts to face life head on and the guts to stick it out when things get tough. Someone both intellectually and emotionally developed and spiritually awake. Not religious, have no use for that pathology, but someone in touch with their spirit/soul.

Someone who's life is not just a series of self-indulgent preoccupations, but someone that is actually concerned with life, the world and wants to lead a meaningful existence.

Someone that understands how precious time is and wastes not a second of it on fruitless, hedonistic pleasures, but rather derives pleasure from helping others.

Someone articulate, socially graceful and well rounded. Someone that is more than a warm body in social situations.

A person who is capable of a range of emotions and isn't afraid to express them. Someone that is able to grow and learn from their mistakes, as well as learn from the mistakes of others.

Someone that has a balanced (see non-codependent) relationship with their parents, in other words, they don't live in their parent's basement (literally or psychologically).

A person that is credible and actually does what they say. Lives by the creedo "Say what you mean and mean what you say".

You may have noticed how I didn't specify any demographics, age, race, gender, etc. because those are not criteria that matter. I have met people from all walks of life and my Imzadi is not defined by such criteria, but rather the depth of their character. Someone that is tried and tested and has come through hardships in life with a positive attitude and isn't psychologically fractured into compliance. Someone with balls and guts to stand up to the coming tyranny and not fold like a shirt at the first challenge.

Until that person materializes, I am more than happy with Sarah and my other friends (Zcrew!! love you) and won't be bothering with people that just don't get me, or try to tell me that I have "episodes" when they are thoughtless and lie and try to make me think that I am somehow the one "reading too much into things".

No, I deserve a real Imzadi, not someone who "will try".

As the Chinese saying goes, "There is only "do", there is no "try".

The Road Ahead

What comes next? What could possibly be around the bend? There really is no way to know, especially if it's a road one's never travelled on before. I guess that is where "faith" comes into play.

So it is with this faith that I move forward and I have to say, the ride is a rather good one. It happened almost the second I started cleaning out the dead weight from my life. The psychic constipation that I seemed to have been suffering from. Joy, Grant, Frankie, Tommi, James, flushed out and cleared the way for my tribe and Sarah and whomever might be a good fit and a keeper going forward. Speaking of keepers, those are the only ones that are permitted in my sphere of influence. People with integrity that know who they are and what meaningful contribution they are willing to make in this life.

Those that are strictly here to take and consume and are primarily interested in their own hedonistic, self-indulgence, they are not suitable for the life boat that we are constructing, and will have to be left behind.

See, because I have this feeling, that what 2012 will mean in practical terms is a mass awakening and it will take a great deal of courage to face the reality of our current broken down and ineffective system of living. It is not an easy realization to arrive at, even when you arrive at it on your own good time, but in the case of those hardwired into the matrix that we call "modern monetary driven life", they will either have a meltdown or grow up and face facts, but either way, it will come to that.

Not because I say so, or because I know I am right, but because life is a constantly evolving entity and nothing stands still. Either you keep up, or get left behind (a nice way of saying "extinct).

Nothing personal, just fact.

So, I am not willing to sit back and let those that are fast asleep lull me into another nap. I was right in 1990 and glad I didn't buy into the housing market when everyone else was losing their minds, only to later lose their hard earned money.

I am glad I stuck to my values and didn't get sucked into the "boiler room" scams of the mid 90's while working with "entrepreneurs".

So it is this time around, I know what I know and the facts are irrefutable. We are fast approaching the collapse of our oil driven life as we have come to be born into and know, and the facts don't lie. Between the contamination of our planet, the hunger, disease, poverty and overall imbalance that we have created, we are coming to the point of no return. Either we change our faulty ways, or this living organism we call "Earth" is going to go into survival mode and shake us off like a dog does with fleas when they become too overwhelming.

Yet rather than focus on what is wrong, my tribe and I prefer and find it more productive to focus on what we know how to do right. That is, create a sustainable life model for ourselves, even within this flawed system. "Be the change" we want to see in the world.

So, the road is taking me (us) to a place of our creation and it's going to be so much fun. Hard work, no doubt as nothing worthwhile is without sacrifice and sweat, but what better way to spend one's time?

So, we're unplugging from the matrix one step at a time. Starting with Maslow's hierarchy of needs. Food, water, shelter. Nothing overly complicated at this point. Just learning the basics about going back to the basics. The kind of life that I saw my grandmother live. Small patch of dirt and a simple home on it, with her garden, her chickens, and the communal oven down the lane.

It doesn't sound glamorous, I realize, but compared to the alternative, it's highly appealing to me.